Just trying to revive this blog - reading the old blogs makes me feel good at times.
3.5 years since my last blog!
3.5 years since my last blog!
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Perhaps now I have a purpose in life..
For a year or so I have been wondering what really is my purpose in life. Am I living a life only because this is the only option --'to live'.
Professionally, I do want to become a good analog designer. I want to prove to myself that I can innovate , that I prove to myself that I am a true "engineer". But that is not the purpose. That is not the ultimate aim of my life :)
I don't want to own a big house (though I like huge villas), I don't want to own a big car , I don't want to lead an abnormally rich life. I am absolutely ok with my current standard of salary.
have been very confused..What is the purpose of living life?
I guess today, I found an answer..I want to become a better human being each day..Pure..that's the word..Yes, I want to become more pure each day. And pure to me means alignment of word,thought & deed..in the satvic sense.
May be I should give more time to think on this..and then again I'll come back to post.
Professionally, I do want to become a good analog designer. I want to prove to myself that I can innovate , that I prove to myself that I am a true "engineer". But that is not the purpose. That is not the ultimate aim of my life :)
I don't want to own a big house (though I like huge villas), I don't want to own a big car , I don't want to lead an abnormally rich life. I am absolutely ok with my current standard of salary.
have been very confused..What is the purpose of living life?
I guess today, I found an answer..I want to become a better human being each day..Pure..that's the word..Yes, I want to become more pure each day. And pure to me means alignment of word,thought & deed..in the satvic sense.
May be I should give more time to think on this..and then again I'll come back to post.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Back Again
It's been months since I wrote something here.
Life's been busy. But has been nice. Many good things happened -- Ankur did the basic course, we had Guruji's Darshan , Roopal got formally hooked.
Life is something that completely amazes me. Life & Nature appear to be same to me. It makes me realize how foolish we all are (most of us, except of course for a few like Guruji). We try to plan each day to perfection and during this planning we make this basic assumption that the next day everything will remain the same. That the next morning when we get up we'll be physically,mentally and emotionally as good as we are then. Isn't this strange? For someone who is in control of himself & his circumstances to be so sure of his tomorrow , makes perfect sense. But for ordinary mortals like us !! Yes , life amazes me ; it's power to break into pieces my assumptions ; it's power to destroy and rebuild!
I get up one morning , making up plans for the week, cribbing about how hectic the previous day was (because I had to attend a late night party & get up for offfice early) and even before I begin work for the day I am informed that a close relative of mine has a possibility (though faint) of being suffering from cancer. I had to wait for 3 days for the test to be done & report to come. And life shows it's power to me. Those 3 days all my plans are blown off. I feel how good that day was when I attended the party. How good an average day is when we just follow a daily routine.
All what I could do was to pray to GOD who I know is, but never know what plans HE has. A report result would change everything , it can either restore my average normal life or introduce me to the hardships of a family fighting cancer of one of its members. I could just WAIT!!!
No, this is not the first time I felt so. As far as I can go back in time, a similar (though very superficial as compared to the one above) feeling arose in me when I had watched Titanic. A ship was considered to be unsinkable sank on it's first voyage.
And all that these things do to me is to remind me to be grateful !!
A point I will like to make here is when I talked about plans, don't interpret it to suggest that planning is foolish. Planning is essential , the only thing needed is an awareness that it is under certain assumptions more than 50% of which we have no control over. This will perhaps stop us from fuming when our plans go for a toss -- for however bad things are , they can turn worse!! And as Guruji says, save your mind at any cost :)
Jai Gurudev!!
Life's been busy. But has been nice. Many good things happened -- Ankur did the basic course, we had Guruji's Darshan , Roopal got formally hooked.
Life is something that completely amazes me. Life & Nature appear to be same to me. It makes me realize how foolish we all are (most of us, except of course for a few like Guruji). We try to plan each day to perfection and during this planning we make this basic assumption that the next day everything will remain the same. That the next morning when we get up we'll be physically,mentally and emotionally as good as we are then. Isn't this strange? For someone who is in control of himself & his circumstances to be so sure of his tomorrow , makes perfect sense. But for ordinary mortals like us !! Yes , life amazes me ; it's power to break into pieces my assumptions ; it's power to destroy and rebuild!
I get up one morning , making up plans for the week, cribbing about how hectic the previous day was (because I had to attend a late night party & get up for offfice early) and even before I begin work for the day I am informed that a close relative of mine has a possibility (though faint) of being suffering from cancer. I had to wait for 3 days for the test to be done & report to come. And life shows it's power to me. Those 3 days all my plans are blown off. I feel how good that day was when I attended the party. How good an average day is when we just follow a daily routine.
All what I could do was to pray to GOD who I know is, but never know what plans HE has. A report result would change everything , it can either restore my average normal life or introduce me to the hardships of a family fighting cancer of one of its members. I could just WAIT!!!
No, this is not the first time I felt so. As far as I can go back in time, a similar (though very superficial as compared to the one above) feeling arose in me when I had watched Titanic. A ship was considered to be unsinkable sank on it's first voyage.
And all that these things do to me is to remind me to be grateful !!
A point I will like to make here is when I talked about plans, don't interpret it to suggest that planning is foolish. Planning is essential , the only thing needed is an awareness that it is under certain assumptions more than 50% of which we have no control over. This will perhaps stop us from fuming when our plans go for a toss -- for however bad things are , they can turn worse!! And as Guruji says, save your mind at any cost :)
Jai Gurudev!!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Back
I was back to home this Monday. Post marriage , this is the maximum time that I have spent with my mom. She is taking care of the major tasks, i help her a little bit. In brief, full aish :)
Uploaded Manali pics yesterday. Still have other pics to load.
See you soon, with something more sensible :D
Uploaded Manali pics yesterday. Still have other pics to load.
See you soon, with something more sensible :D
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Off for a few days
I'll be off net for a few days starting tomorrow. Ankur is leaving for his official trip tomorrow, I'll shift to his parents place for a few days where I'll have no internet access & with aadi-aditi who would want to stick to net. Have a cousin's wedding this sunday, am looking fwd to it since it's the first wedding after I got married and so this will help me remember my wedding day :)
Next week will start uploading pics -- engagement, wedding, hua hin & manali.
Next week will start uploading pics -- engagement, wedding, hua hin & manali.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
A new week ahead
Had a relaxed Sunday after almost one & a half month. Purposely got up late , missed kriya :(
cleaned, made lunch , slept & then market ! And the best part Ankur & me got time to talk , to plan the day :) Ankur's leaving for US this Wednesday, since wedding we have been together each day, so this will be a deviation from the routine we have been stuck to for the last 120 days.
Got a new cellphone ; had nokia 1100 since Jan 2005 & was one of the most "paisa vasool" buys of my life. By the way, Ankur paid for the mobile :)
Plan to wake up early tomorrow, so good bye for now!
cleaned, made lunch , slept & then market ! And the best part Ankur & me got time to talk , to plan the day :) Ankur's leaving for US this Wednesday, since wedding we have been together each day, so this will be a deviation from the routine we have been stuck to for the last 120 days.
Got a new cellphone ; had nokia 1100 since Jan 2005 & was one of the most "paisa vasool" buys of my life. By the way, Ankur paid for the mobile :)
Plan to wake up early tomorrow, so good bye for now!
Friday, June 11, 2010
This too shall pass ..
Jai Gurudev,
To blog or not to blog : this has been the fuss for over a year now.And finally a very kutti (kutti is a tamil word which refers to small) incident drove me to write my first ever blog on net.
TOI has started a weekly supplement - Speaking tree. One of the Sundays there was a article titled " This too shall pass" . I had heard a similar story on one of the devotional channels, and somehow the words used in the article weren't apt. May be the author used the wrong words or may be I am digging too deep or again may be I have interpreted it incorrectly.I normally am not the kind of person who randomly corrects things, I prefer to remain silent .But when my brother sent a sms which quoted the key lines of the same story that Monday ( the very next day the article appeared; here I would like to mention that my brother normally does not send sms) I really could not ignore my urge to replace certain words in the story so as to convey more clearly what the author must have intended to say. But will also like to remind that all this comes from my limited knowledge about life. So please pardon me if I make some mistake.
During a happy period , "this too shall pass" must not make you sad. Similarly, during a tough phase of your life, "this too shall pass" must not simply make you happy. "This too shall pass" should remind you to mantain "equanimity" in victory as well as defeat, in happy times and also in the tough times, in all the extremes of life.
I am 27 now, and vividly remember last 10 years of my life. One thing that I have clearly observed is "nothing is permanent in life, except change" . Some changes are as per our wishes, some are against our whims. Forget about others, our opinions , our perceptions change with time.
It isn't easy to remind ourselves of "this too shall pass" during the difficult times & remain calm. But the fact of the matter is, we have to learn this sometime. We have no choice :)
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